Waiting

Jesse and Seth waited in Erik's office.

"What do they think it is dad?"

"They saw something on the X-ray from last week,

Erik just wanted to make sure it was nothing."

Seth looked worried.

"Hey, mom is going to be fine. She is the toughest one in this family."

Seth agreed.

Erik walked in and they stood..

He had a brown folder,

it was open, and he was intently reading the pages before him..

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The Horses

Nashville

Scared

I am scared.

I wish it was me,

not Anne.

The MRI took a long time.

I hate the sound it makes..

sounds like somebody hitting a metal pipe with a hammer..

while you are laying inside the metal pipe..

I hate hospitals..

the smell is not natural..

nothing like it anywhere else.

I have been praying the Rosary all day..

mostly the Sorrowful mysteries,

and I have been offering up this anxiety for Anne and other sick folk in this place..

it's a Catholic thing..

anxiety, pain and suffering isn't wasted..

I can always learn something about life that God hadn't taught me yet,

sometimes it's the only thing that gets our attention.

just like with the horses and teaching them,

you come across obstacles in the forest,

you make use of it..

nothing is wasted.

At least this is what I keep telling myself..

it's what I keep trying to focus on.

Seth just got here,

I told Isabelle not to come till Friday,

not to miss classes..

I told her this is just testing,

we really don't know anything yet.

It could be nothing..

But Lord I'm scared.

Jesse

Oxford

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The Horses

Nashville

The Beacon

Dr. Richardson called.
"Hey Jesse, can you meet me for breakfast at the Beacon,
say around 8:00?"
The Beacon is a true Oxford landmark.
It was started in 1960 by Flem Mize.
It is the place to eat breakfast in this small town.
They don't take credit cards, just cash, and if they know you, a check.
Jesse sat talking to Ms. Charlene, the owner.
Tony, her son who now runs the place, brought him a coffee.
"How is Seth liking Ole Miss football?"
"He is hanging in there. He said the speed is the hardest thing to get used to."
"Yea, you always here that, how much faster college is, and then how much faster the NFL is."
Erik walked in and waved to one of his patients sitting alone at a table.

"How are you this morning Mr. Hastings?"
Jesse and Erik sat down in one of the red booths near the coffee machine toward the back.
"I am loving this weather today, supposed to get up to 50."
Erik took a deep breath and looked Jesse in the eye.
"My nurse discovered something on one of the X-rays we took of Anne when she was in for the concussion."
Jesse felt a wave of fear roll over him, like the first cold wind of winter.

"I never even saw the X-ray until late yesterday, the girl running the machine had accidentally forgot to put it in the file.

The only reason we noticed was my nurse thought to count the slides and found one more than listed."

Jesse didn't even hear Erik's explanation..

"Is it a tumor?"

Erik said he wasn't sure but would have to run more test. But whatever it was, it wasn't supposed to be there.

"I wanted to talk to you about it first cause I know she will be way calmer than you will. 

We both know she takes everything in stride, whereas you start fearing the worse.

I have cleared everything for the morning so we can find out what is going on."

Jesse grimaced a little and thanked Erik for taking the time to do this.

"I will ride out to the ranch and tell her.

 We will meet you at the hospital at 9:30.

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The Horses

Nashville

Big Hearted

I woke up to the sound of a crow.
Sounded like he was right outside the window.
I tried to remember the dream,
but i couldn't.
I dressed in the dark and walked out to the barn.
This winter will not let go.
It is still colder than it is supposed to be in Mississippi.
I turned on the lights in the barn and the round-pen out behind the barn.
Cisco looked at me with sleepy eyes as if to say,
 'What time is it?'
I saddled him and walked him to the pen.
I worked him on the ground just to warm him up a little,
I lunged him a few times to the right then the left..
He came to life and his friskiness started to show.
He crow-hopped a little, pretending to buck..
he backed his ears and kicked up his back hooves a couple of times.
When I climbed into the saddle he was as calm as a mill pond.
I can't begin to tell you how much I learn from horses.
They are animals of prey,
always one step away from flight,
and for an animal of this size, with this speed, elegance, strength, and beauty,
they are also incredibly fragile.
4 skinny legs, and if one is lame the whole animal is lame.
It doesn't take much to hurt them,
but then again,
they are as tough and as big hearted as any animal God made,
the fact that they will trust us humans,
and give us all they have,
holds a lot of wisdom for us humans,
if we would simply recognize it.

Jesse
Oxford

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The Horses
Oxford MS.

Step Step Slide (Edit)

Jesse had stopped and picked up a Medoc to go with the chicken.

The neighbors raise chickens and every now and then they like to barter.

Joe wanted some of the prime beef he knew Jesse had in the deep freeze in his garage.

Jesse took it over as Joe had just finished plucking and cleaning the chicken.

Anne cooked it on the grill, bathing it in fresh garlic, sea salt, and ground black pepper.

She brushed on Olive Oil throughout.

Jesse built a fire in the fireplace and put on an old Lyle Lovett record called Pontiac.

An actual vinyl LP.

The Magnavox record player has been in the family for 45 years.

It is a piece of furniture, truly an antique.

He walked over and stood behind Anne and took her in his arms..

"I am cooking darl!" 

She finally gave in and they slow danced around the den,

step step, slide, step step slide, easy twirl, step step slide...

as Lyle and Emmy Lou sang, 

"Walk the through the bottomland without no shoes".

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The Horses

Nashville

Give it a shot..

If you have never sat a horse,

never loped through a field of high summer grass,

never topped a hill and seen a herd of cattle grazing in a green valley,

never woke up early and walked out to the barn in the darkness,

never heard a low nicker as you turned the lights on in the stalls,

never smelled the earthy scent of a horse filled barn,

never had a horse walk over to you and lower his head in submission,

showing you a trust you don't deserve...

never rode a trail from sun up to sun down,

never galloped full speed to turn a running herd of cattle..

I would encourage you to give it a shot.

Jesse

Oxford

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Nashville

Poetry

Steve pulled up with 8 Steers in the trailer.

The day had started out sunny,

but by 2:00 it was cloudy and the temperature dropping.

After Mass the McGuane's had eaten at Volta.

Seth had the Gyro and Isabelle liked the Gyro salad.

Jesse had a hamburger with sweet potato fries,

Anne had a salad.

Steve waved to Jesse who was on the tractor raking the dirt in the arena.

Seth was saddling the horses.

'Hey Seth, how's football treatin' ya?"

Steve walked up and shook his hand.

"It's rough! They don't have much mercy on freshman.

But I'm hanging with it. It's a lot faster than I imagined, 

but you told me it would be.

It ain't high school that's for sure."

Seth was a starting linebacker at Lafayette High School for 3 years.

He was in the top 5 recruits for Mississippi.

Jesse walked in the barn and shook hands with Steve.

"I got it pretty even and soft, if it don't rain we ought be fine."

Steve backed the trailer up to the catch pen next to the arena.

He opened the trailer and the steers ambled off.

Seth was sitting atop Cisco working his rope.

Jesse climbed up on Texas.

Steve worked the chute and within a few minutes they were roping.

After the eight steer had been roped Jesse stepped off and Steve got on.

Jesse worked the chute and marveled at how fast Steve was with the head shot.

Steve was one of the best headers he had ever seen.

"How come you never took it more serious Steve? 

Heck, you could have been in the money just about anywhere you wanted to go."

Steve just smiled and said he would rather spend his time working the horse than traveling all over the country.

He had trained and sold many roping horses over the years.

They often went for top dollar. He was highly sought for his ability with training a roping horse.

Jesse lifted the gate and within a couple of seconds Steve had the steer caught,

He dallied and pulled the head around in perfect rhythm for Seth to throw his rope and catch the back feet.

It was a thing of beauty.. sheer poetry.

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The Horses

Nashville