Wednesday, March 2, 2011

sea change

The days are getting longer
i felt a warm wind mingled with the cold this morning
seasons simply amaze us
they are God's way of keeping us looking ahead,
forgetting what lies behind..
today a friend found out his father is close to death
he has been ill for a while..
but that call came..
that call.
i remember that call regarding my father..
something changes inside
a new season,
but one never felt before.
death and living 
the ultimate season
the ultimate sea change
death

wkm
nashville
for Mark

Tuesday, March 1, 2011

the falling light of hope

the falling light of hope births shadows
sometimes the shadows obscure reason
and faith is a foreign idea once embraced
punching the pillows 
lying in the dark listening to the wind
alone
a scattered puzzle of thoughts
restlessness leads to recklessness
self hatred
pity party
Satan's scenario plays over and over again
then comes that most pointless word humans can utter..
"Why"
screamed or whispered,
it is a word with no answer
but then again
millions of answers..
the falling light of hope births shadows

wkm
nashville

Monday, February 28, 2011

Thursday, February 17, 2011

The Bull



I walked out to the barn in the early light and saddled Cisco.
It was a beautiful morning and I decided to ride to town.
Ever since the first time Steve and I did it, 
I've made it an every now and then occurence.
It stirs things up around the square,
gives folks something to talk about,
plus it's great for the horse I am working with.
It's the kind of thing my old man liked,
he laughed when I told him about the time Steve and I rode to the bank.
But I didn't make it to the square today...
When Cisco and I turned out of the driveway I saw him.
He looked bigger than ever,
as black as night.
He was chewing some bright green summer grass, 
staring at us.
Instead of heading to the left which is the direction of town,
we headed right, toward the entrance to the field where he lives.
I wanted to thank the bull.
If he hadn't broke into our field that cold winter morning,
my beautiful Anne might no longer be with me.
"God works in mysterious ways Cisco"..
The bull didn't seem bothered at all that we were coming toward him.
We walked slowly, not wanting to threaten him.
He kept grazing and watched us without any sign of anxiety.
We got about 10 feet from the black giant and stopped.
"You remember us big boy?"
Cisco lowered his head and got a mouthful of sweet grass..
I sat there on Cisco in the quiet,
as thankful as a man could possibly be.

Jesse
Oxford
The End

wkm
The Horses
Nashville

Hey folks, I am going to continue writing this story. I appreciate all the kind words and wonderful comments from so many of you as I have been developing it. It has become a real passion and I am seeing many places I need to go  with characters old and some new you have yet to be introduced to. I will let you know when it is finished.



Wednesday, February 16, 2011

Grateful


The treatment was intense.
She lost some of her hair and eventually shaved it.
They started with steroid medications to fight inflammation and swelling.
Then chemo..
Then surgery.
They did not find cancer anywhere else in her body.
Jesse went to every session of chemo and learned what to do to help her deal with it.
Chemotherapy was the hardest part of the journey.
They flew to Houston for the surgery.
The Mayo clinic.
Erik was beaming when he got the news from the surgeon who performed the operation.
"Jesse, they got it all and there is no sign of it spreading, she is cancer free!"
Jesse felt like he'd just won the lottery.
"Prayer is a powerful thing bro, while you doctors did your thing, 
I asked, and had a bunch of folks in heaven asking the Lord to do His thing."
The recovery took some time.
She had to go through rehab to tune up some of her motor skills.
The part of the brain where the tumor was removed controls hand eye coordination,
two months after the surgery she was doing well.
Her hair grew back thicker, 
it was fuller and darker than before.
Jesse told her everyday how beautiful she was with short hair..
"Girl, you even looked good bald"
Isabelle was home for summer break and helped out while Anne was in rehab.
Seth was with a friend out in New Mexico Team Roping.
He called every day to check in. 
Anne finally told him she was fine and he didn't have to call every day.
Jesse started five new colts in the spring...
Summer was here..
The coldest winter in memory was behind them...
Jesse and Anne sat on the front porch swing drinking iced tea.
Russ lay on his back with his feet in the air on Anne's lap.
She stroked his belly and looked out at the setting sun.
"You know Jess, we have some incredible friends."
Steve and Barbara had made sure the animals were looked after.
Joe and Mary brought meals over during the hardest days.
Joe the neighbor more than once left a dressed out ready to grille chicken in the garage freezer.
"Yea, we sure do Shuug."

wkm
The Horses
Nashville

Tuesday, February 15, 2011

Horse Manure



This life holds a lot of surprises for us humans.
Some better than others.
Anne is sleeping,
she seems to be handling this pretty good,
way better than me..
Russ is curled up next to her,
I swear that dog knows something is up.
He won't leave her side.
She really is the strongest person I know.
Her strength comes from her trust,
from her kind heart.
Her tender heart always amazes me, teaches me, inspires me..
She slays me, always has...
I wish my old man was alive.
I'd love to talk to him right now..
I'm not sure why,
I just would.
The horses like this weather.
It hasn't been this warm in a while.
It's close to 50 at 4:00 in the morning.
I can't sleep.
Erik asked me if I wanted some sleeping pills,
I guess I should have taken them,
but I don't like taking pills.
Guess I'll clean the stalls..
turn the horses out for a while..
it does a mind good to shovel horse manure..

Jesse
Oxford

wkm
The Horses
Nashville

Monday, February 14, 2011

Thank God that bull..


Erik finally looked up from the test results..
"It's a tumor but we've caught it early."
He told them what the next few weeks would hold.
"Thank God that bull knocked her down or we might not have found out for a while."
He asked Jesse if Anne had been having headaches or dizziness.
"If she had she hasn't mentioned it."
Erik said that was a good sign,
that the tumor was not putting any pressure on the brain yet.
"It is about the size of an acorn right now, 
we couldn't ask for a better prognosis as far as getting rid of it."
He put his hand on Jesse's shoulder and told him Anne would be fine.
"She should be ready to go in a little bit, 
they are almost finished with her blood work."
He told Jesse to have her there at 7:30 in the morning to begin chemo..
They went back out to the waiting room,
Erik had other patients to see.
He told them again not to worry, that this was going to turn out well.
Seth saw in his father's eyes that he was having a hard time.
"Dad, Erik knows what he is talking about, he wouldn't tell us something he didn't believe."
Jesse agreed.
After waiting only a few minutes Anne came through the door.

wkm
The Horses
Nashville